catching my breath

Ellie napped a lot Saturday and Sunday which gave me snippets of time to finish reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. Quite a satisfying conclusion, although I wish we had seen whatever happened with Hagrid and Madam Maxime...

This month has been a whirlwind. I'm taking a short breather to write a blog entry - will probably randomly type on it most of the day before posting, as I'm sitting here at work, back full-time already, and purposefully swamped. Keeping busy here is helping me to keep my mind off of how much I want to be at home with Ellie. I'm trying to stay grateful... that I have such a good job and tons of new opportunities at work, that Ellie is receiving such great care from family and friends and not strangers, that I'm here and not halfway around the world like a friend of mine whose nine-month-old is in Korea while she is here finishing her studies. I'm glad that I started consciously trusting Ellie's life to God's perfect care as soon as I found out I was pregnant. It doesn't make it less difficult to do so now but I have such a peace that she is in His hands, whether I am present or not. The last thing I want to do is make an idol out of her upbringing or try to take an inappropriate place in her life. I know we will always have a special bond as mother and daughter... but I want her to know that her heavenly Father is the One that has perfect love for her.